This is no Hollywood

It's a miracle
Meeting you again
Thought I would never find you in the end

You'll have to excuse me
My eyes are filling with tears
Can't help it after the absence of all these fears

You won't believe me
No matter how true it may be
Cause it's hard for even myself to see

There's a part locked inside
That has words for you
That I still care after all we've been through

It's like the darkside of the moon in this little world of mine
and I'm always trying to hide it and let you know I'm fine
I'm playing the cards wrong and waiting for you to call my bluff
But I can't seem to realize that I've finally had enough
I'm still crazy about you and that's what I've always been
but I can never really tell you, no, not when you're with him.

Life is kind of crazy
When all you tell is lies
Hard to live in when you can't cut all the ties.

Truth be told I'm happy
Seeing that you are happy too
Guess I couldn't ask anything better out of you

This isn't Hollywood and I'm the one who really knows
That things never seem to work, just look at me, it shows.
This world of ours could have really been so much better
but I'm stuck with these clouds opposed to your sunshine weather.
I won't be around much in case you need to be picked off of the ground
You took it all away from me, it hurts as bas it might sound
I looked away knowing what was going on between you two
I locked away the feelings of how much I truly loved you.

It hurts so much to the point where I sometimes can't even stand
This wasn't how it was supposed to be.  
It wasn't part of the plan.
You were supposed to reach for me when I stretched out my hand
but now my heart is screaming.  
Please, don't you understand?



It's like the darkside of the moon in this little world of mine
Maybe someday you'll see me but someone else you'll really find
A different me.  Not the one you left behind.
I've moved on to better things, I hope that you won't mind.
This is no Hollywood, as things never go as planned.
One day you'll finally understand...